Christmas

Well here it comes, the holiday we all look forward to coming... and going... I am excited for Christmas but not the headache that comes with it! I am done shopping, almost done wrapping, not doing any baking, and found our family to help this year already got it delivered. I am not really sure were the dread is coming from? I was super excited but with the split down the middle of my family tree I am in total disarray. I know it will all work out, I know I should have faith, love and all of those things but have you ever met my family? Why o why cant we all just get along?

Thanksgiving!

Well we made it through Thanksgiving and Christmas is approaching very quickly. We were super busy during our Thanksgiving break, we got our family pictures taken, made gingerbread houses, went mini golfing, bowling, to the Sand Dunes, Pirate Island Pizza, movies, shopping and spent some time with family.
Loved having the kids home for a few days and loved being able to hang out!
We stayed home for Thanksgiving for the first time ever and sadly I am thinking it might be the way it is from now on. Both sides of my Family had some drama and I am so glad I was not there to watch either side fall apart even more. I am so sad this holiday season, watching the people I love grow further apart from each other and slipping out of my reach at the same time. I love my family all of it, even the parts that are not related by blood, but the hurt of knowing that I cannot hang on any more has me almost willing to give it all up!

I am getting super excited, this week I am going to Little Shop Of Horrors with My Mandy, and Kelsey. Jordan is coming Saturday, and next week is Thanksgiving with Tina and her family. I am looking forward to the holidays for the first time in years!

Busy Busy

It seems I have gotten so busy I never have time to update my blog. Things are finally slowing down for a sec so I thought I would share a little. I am super excited about things coming up, one Jordan is coming down for Thanksgiving, Two we are getting family pictures while he is down, three I am having Thanksgiving at my house this year my my super Sis-in-law, and her cute little family.
I have finally got to a happy place in my life I have given up the fight of things that are not important and am re-discovering the things that are! I love my family, my kids and my husband are great I am really lucky! My Sister is awsome.. don't know how she does it and still has a smile! I am getting to know my step Mom Amanda and learning she really is a sweet person. I look forward to getting to know my other Siblings and there families a little more this holiday season.
For the first time in a long time I am excited to have the Holidays fast approaching!

Attitude Adjustment

I am in need of an attitude adjustment! I have been so mean and angry lately and I cannot get my attitude under control! I need more sleep, more money and less stress please, please serenity now!
Baahh I hope that this ends soon!

Slacker.. ME!

So I did the very thing I hate others to do and have not posted in about a month. My life seems so crazy and I thought with the kids back in school I would be able to get "control" again, but with two drill practices a day, games on Fridays, football practice three times a week, and Kayd's games on Saturday's I cant seem to even keep up on my house. This is all in addition to working 55-60 hours a week, cooking dinner, grocery shopping and paying bills. Whheeww I am exhausted!

So now that summer is over we will not get to see Jordan for a little while, he also plays football and cannot miss any games, He is trying to make a name for himself, trying to show them he deserves his spot on the JV team as starting QB! I am super proud of him and his determination and drive, he is a good boy and we are lucky to have him in our lives!

As a last minute trip we took the kids to Sand Hollow in ST George this last weekend we had a good time we went with some good friends, it was nice to share our vacation with them.

I still have one little puppy left to sell it has not been an easy task with the economy the way it is people are just not spending the money on new pets! She is super cute and may end up our new addition!
Today is Tony's birthday and we are going to dinner with our friends Tab and Dallin, they are taking us out.. How sweet. So Happy Birthday to you my sweet husband! I love you so much and hope that your day is full of happiness and I hope all of your dreams come true!

Our anniversary is coming up on the 29th and I cant believe it has been 12 years. It is so crazy, but I would not change it for the world I love him very much and cant imagine my life with out him!

Bllahhh

I am finally feeling better, not much but any counts I guess. After being sick for almost 5 days, not just sick, but in bed cant get out sick. I am back to the daily routine trying to get by and do it with a smile. I was going to watch my cute little nephew for my sister who is in Texas but I am not up to par and I am sad about that!
We have the parade today, Kelsey is in it with the drill team, and they are having a fundraiser tonight, Band Jam should be fun, food, music, family what more could you ask for?
Jordan, Veronica and Justice are here they got in late last night and we are super excited to spend some time with them.
Sorry for the blahh blog today just how I am feeling!

My baby

I have been struggling lately with Kelsey, being thirteen going on 25 is a hard place to be, and I do know that! Every day I see this sad little face with tears streaming down it and no way to stop her hurt. What is a Mom to do, I have tried to talk to her tried to tell her she is better than this and that boys are not worth all of this heart ache.
She had a "boyfriend" for about 6 months or so, Curtis, and he broke up with her last week, Breaking her little heart. Now I know how that feels I am no stranger to a teenage broken heart I had a few myself, mostly I gave them but once in a while I got one, now being an adult I see how silly it was, is, and want to help her avoid the pain.
Most people laugh at her, laugh it off like it doesn't matter, but to her it does, no matter how you feel about it, it matters to her. The worst thing that has happened to you is STILL the worst thing that has ever happened even if it seems silly to others.
I know this will pass and I guess this is part of growing up, but man I hate to watch her so sad!

SNNAAAKKE

So we went up the Canyon last night to roast hot dogs, and make smores. We were sitting around after we ate, and Kayden being the adventurous boy he is, went running up the mountain to see what he could see. Little did he know that would be a baby rattle snake, he managed to get past it without seeing it on the way up, but on the way back down, not so lucky. He stood at the top of the mountain, stiff as a board and scared to death. Tony went up to help him and they both got down without incident. We are very lucky! Kayden was pale as a ghost and crying, so sad!

I have totally neglected my blog, I hate when people do that. So this is what I have been up to: Jozee had 3 puppies she had 2 females and a little male, the male didnt make it, we were all very sad. I still have the 2 females and they seem to be doing well, so far so good.
Jordan is out visiting, so we have been staying busy trying to keep kids entertained. He will be leaving on Sunday and we will miss him.
My cute cousin Alyix got married to the love of her life and that was super exciting. Both of my kids were in the wedding it was fun to see Kayden in a tux, such a handsome boy, Kelsey was beautiful too, in her 4 inch RED heels!
We went out boating Sunday and my some of my brothers came out, it was good to see Cody and Chay, and my little nephew Carson. We all got a little sun burnt, more sunscreen next time!
We are planning on going to Seven Peaks Friday so if anyone wants to meet up there that would be super fun! I am trying to find something fun for the kids to do for the 4Th, if anyone has any ideas I would love to hear them.
So that is an update, more to come!

I have been sitting here feeling really guilty the last few days, guilty and selfish. I know that so many people around me need help, need time and attention, a break from their kids, maybe even just to go out for a Coke or something. I cant seem to find the time to help. When I do have time I cant muster up the energy to drive the 15 or 20 min it might take to get to their houses. How lame, how lame am I I work 50-60 hours a week and have two half grown children and I can't find the time or energy to make someone else's day by helping them pull weeds, or clean their kitchen.

Maybe I have forgotten what is really important, maybe I have lost my way, I am going to make a conscious effort to see more people even if it is only for an hour, I am going to spend more time with my nieces and nephews, who by the way I adore! More time with old friends and less time with the same old same old. So please let me help you if I ask, please feel free to ask me. Those of you I have not seen in 2009 lets get together even just for a minute I am serious! Even if I have I think we should get together anyway!

Your A Heart Breaker

Yeah for me, this is the second time I have woke up to find that the boys with broken hearts have pulled my flowers and thrown them in the window well of their heart breaker! Yes, I am serious the flowers that I bought myself, and planted myself as a gift from my family for Mothers day, have been uprooted again. I am so tired of kids thinking that by destroying the property of the parents of the kids they are mad at, they are some how getting back at them. This makes me mad, sad and scared for this next generation of unruly children to run the world!

I guess on the bright side this time they didn't empty every single of of my planters just a few. AARRGGGHH!

Okay, So I am going through pictures to try to post some to go with my blogging and I cannot find any on my computer of Kayden that are at all new. So what is going on? I guess the fact that he is almost never home and spends so much time at Little Grandmas means he misses out on all of my obnoxious picture taking. I do have some new pictures of him on my camera, but since I have to take it to WalMart to upload them on a disk and then to my computer (because my super cute daughter broke the part of my camera that plugs into the computer) means it doesn't get done very often. So to make sure that everyone knows who he is and he is a part of my blog I will be going to WalMart tonight to get that taken care of. I will be posting those very soon!

Let me catch you up

So those of you who have not listened to my constant rambling and complaining lately may not be up -to -date on the latest "Happiness" at my house, so let me update you. Kelsey made the drill team at her school, Yeah! Kayden is on a good baseball team this year for once and doing great! Jordan has been offered the quarterback position on the JV team for his school and spending all summer at football camp, Jozee is very pregnant and expecting babies in about a week and a half, I am still a workaholic (according to my friends and family)and Tony is, well just sitting back watching it all.
Everyday is an event and I cant wait to see what the next day will bring!

I'm new at this

So beacuse I am such a blog stocker I thought maybe I should start my own. I am new at this so it might be slow coming but I will do my best to update often (since I love to see new entries everyday on everyone elses). This is a start I will get back to you soon!